Well, today marks the next stage in my travels. I am leaving this afternoon to head back down to Santa Monica and am having very strong mixed feelings. I have spent the past month on my best friend's couch in the East Bay Area and am quite sad to leave. The pull between Socal and Norcal within me is getting a lot stronger and I need to figure out where my heart really is.
It seems like my entire cycling career and everything associated with it is within the lower half of the state. My coach and team are both in Santa Monica, plus I have a job there that allows me to train and take time to race. Starting in September I would be living with teammates in a "cycling house" which would definitely keep the motivation high.
My friends and family make the decision complicated by living 5 hours north of the rest of my life. Since I've been living with my best friend I have realized how great it is to be able to hang out every day even if it is just watching the television. I know I'll always have a home here no matter where I go or what I do, so maybe I should just make the leap and see what happens.
I suppose that decision doesnt really need to be made until September. Everything will work out, and if I want something badly enough I can chase it from wherever I reside. I need to decide where I will be the happiest and I need to make my decision for the right reasons, not because it is what I think people want me to do.
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