Starting Over

Cycling has definitely taken a backseat in my life the past month. With my father's passing I have had my hands full with a lot of un-fun business and waves of grief. I have finally been able to move out of the house and have put all my belongings into storage with the help of my friends.

Sitting on my friend's couch watching the tour makes me quite excited to start riding again. I am rather concerned about the despicable shape I will be in, no doubt, while everyone else is hitting their peaks for the season. I am considering simply forgetting the rest of the road season and trying to focus on track again. This season has been nothing to write home about as is, so it wouldnt be too much of a disappointment.

The trouble is to determine where to go from here. I'll be couch surfing in LA until Oct 1st. There is talk of a cycling house starting Sept 1st in LA, but my heart is also up in Norcal with my best friend and the only family I have left. I guess time will tell. The only thing that is for certain is that I must continue chasing my dream. Once I get my life back together, I need to get back in the saddle. It was my dad's dream for me to get a pro contract. I'll just have to pretend this season didnt happen.

My dad and I at the Tour of California Crit-The last race he saw me in